Been sitting here in Baja for the better part of a year with the promise of it being Paradise. I've been hoodwinked! So far I've realized that I can't stand the food and that the fact that I can't speak a word of Spanish is causing severe problems personally and legally. I've lost 25 pounds since being here and realize that a good way to lose weight is to move to a country where you hate the food. Not that I couldn't stand to loose a few extra 4 year old pregnancy pounds. I also realized very quickly that Mexicans love their beer, dances, and any excuses to put the two together. I started chronicling all of my thoughts and emotions and experiences when I first arrived, in written form, due to the fact that you have to jump through hoops of fire to get Internet service here. Welcome to Baja, the land where everything is 1000% more difficult.It is about a month away from what should be my 11th wedding anniversary. Last year at this time I was writing in my journal that it was a a week from my 10th wedding anniversary and if you had told me at that time, that I would be sitting in Baja Mexico, with my ex-husband, his new wife and my three children living in a house about a half a mile from me, I would have said you need to have a few screws put back in your head. One year later a lot has changed. I am in Baja with one of my kids while the ex and his wife are in Las Vegas with my two other children, you will find out how we all got here but, it will take some time.This Blog thing is all new to me. I suppose it is like journaling but with more pizazz. I am in awe at the professionalises of a lot of Bloggers in Blog-World. I signed up for my page and I had no idea there were URLs and HTMLs and how to edit or publish or add contents and profiles. I am afraid to post tonight's writing for fear of the regrets I may have putting "It all out there" for all to see. I am having difficulty trying to figure out how to edit the content of my entries. I know that I can figure things out pretty quickly on my own, but being away from the Internet for other than using it for searching for content and E-mail, its all pretty new to me. I've heard of Facebook and MySpace and now Blogging and there is something called Twitteriing but I am definitely afraid to enter that domaine. Tomorrow I will give it a go at giving my page a more personal touch. I have a Webcam but there is no way in frozen hell that I am plastering my face out there. Anonymity is fine with me. So why is this Bajablues? Because I was promised relaxation and peace and quiet and an easier life than what I had and I have had nothing but experiences from hell here. Yes, I live here. No I don't love like every visiting surfer or camper asks me. Sure It may be great for the 2 weeker or occasional 2 monther, who gets to go back to civilization, but I don't think this is Paradise and a lot of it has nothing to do with Baja itself but a lot does.